WHOOOOOOOOOPEEEEEEEEEEEE

so now I'm GRADUATINGGGGGGGG

the speech exam was a piece of cake and i don't know why i didn't take care of it sooner. but it's prolly cuz i didn't want the reality of me leaving college to set in yet. And now that i passed my speech exam and seen my advisors to check that i took all my courses, the feeling of being done with class had a special moment, but was very soon passed because now, i really need to get a job! To all the faculty that i talked w/ today, they all asked me what I was going to do after graduation, and I felt a little bit embarrassed to say that I was taking a year off to work on my grad school apps. They could only nod at me and tell me to hurry along w/ the process already. It was kinda depressing to hear, and that's why i don't seek advice from my advisors...they all end up saying the same thing or what i already know.

but in other news, i started wearing my fergalicious boots w/ the lil heel and i really like wearing it except that there's still too much pressure being placed on my toes and that area at the bottom front of the foot. that's a pain >_<

today is my graduation day decider

so i got in my mail from ccny that i will be graduating w/ honors in summa cum laude w/e that means...and then i get another letter from the school that my graduation application is put on hold since i haven't done my core and major check w/ my advisors (my bad),but it didn't say that i didn't take my speech exam...so does that mean i'm exempt from the exam? i wish! but i prepared a speech for tomorrow anyways, and will see my advisors before my speech exam to see if i can get an exception lols ....aigooo...me and my last minute ways...i dun think college has ever improved on my priority or time-management skills; heck, it mite have gotten worse considering the time i'm blogging about this.

but this blogging may actually help me since a few nite ago, i went to bed a little before 2:30 am (which is kinda rare this semester), but couldn't sleep. i could only toss and turn, and i felt SUFFOCATED even tho my blanket was pulled down to my arms. i thought i was maybe having a panic attack or being over-stressed, but yeah, i wanna relax now and get these things done and over with since nothing will really matter after tomorrow, i think?

E ♥?

Went to the earth fair @ grand central w/ my lil sis. had loads of fun, and after getting my face painted w/ a flower and leaves, things got even funnier. i had forgotten i had gotten my face painted, and was wondering why ppl were staring at me strangely, but after i remembered, i started staring back at their staring glances just to see their expressions xD


but after going to the earth fair, i realized what a bad person i was. as much as i want to call myself an environmentalist at heart or a tree-hugger (yea, they rock too!), i'm more of a wasteful city gal...::aigoo:: and i bought the Avatar dvd and watched it the same day too, and that made me sadder....i'm so sorry to mother nature, that tries so hard to protect the balance of life, but we humans, were not given the natural sense to be responsible for our environment  */\*

this red nose

so I nose-bled again this morning. This is like the 6th time I've nose-bled in the past 2 weeks! Is something wrong w/ me? wait, I'm having a FRINGE moment >_< 

maybe i should get this checked out...hopefully soooon

damn this jealousy

so there is this classmate of mine who just gets on my freaking  

NERVES

We're in the same lab together and have the same data for this experiment. He knew I was having trouble with getting the experimental data to match up with the literature value so he kept telling me to stop worrying about it. So the report is due tomorrow. I'm still working in the data and he comments on my fb wall at ~11 pm to tell me he got the value to match up with the literature. As i finished reading the comment, i felt the urge to comment back really sarcastically, cuz c'mon! was he trying to rub it in my face? he didn't even say how he got the calculations to be that way....argh..i hate writing lab reports, and i hate that dude even more

please shoot me

graduating or not?

It's late April and I just ordered my cap and gown for graduation in may, but I haven't even finalized everything for graduation. I still haven't done my speech proficiency exam, which I have been pushing off since I first transferred to City College from Stony Brook. And when I had to report to the Chairman of the Chemistry Dept. if I was graduating this semester in order to do my research presentation, he called to ask me if I was really graduating because he saw in my transcript that I was missing some chemistry courses! I got really scared because I had made sure that I took all my major classes with my advisor since something always goes wrong with the transfering of credits for transfer students. And now I have to keep checking my transcript b/c the school keeps on taking away classes that I have already taken. it's as if CCNY wants to keep me here for a few more semesters..blah!

and I just finished watching Dae Jang Geum, a historical korean drama that had 50% ratings when it was airing, and I absolutely loved it! it is the best historical korean drama, it made me wish i was living at that time =D

i should really be working now...hearing all my friends and other peers getting jobs, interviews, grad schools, and other plans makes me nervous but what can i do? i have to go to china in july-aug. everything needs to be put on hold until i come back...