i broke down again. so much negativity just overwhelmed me that i needed a moment to cry it all out. this dark cloud just won't go away. i can never be certain about anything and it's really scaring me to the point that it's shaking me and making me wheeze. i needed this tho. i don't know why, but i needed to go through this. i've come to realize to cherish more and more of what/who matters most to me. but i am still at the same place. i just want to get away. it's hard to think straight so i have to write it out....
i think everyday i will make small goal(S) so that i can build up my self-esteem and confidence, which are so sorely in lacking atm. Life is full of uncertainty, but i really can't lose myself and my dreams. I must stay persevere and not lose focus. I just have to hope for the best because in the end, that is all that that i got by my side.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Evaluation
I finally mustered up the courage to fill out an evaluation sheet in order to get a pay raise/promotion. The manager that I had a crush on promised to do my evaluation, but I had to keep nag him a whole week to get to my evaluation cuz that week was his last week as manager of our floor before leaving to the other floor. When it finally came, we sat in a room alone together with the door left open. I've never had this much privacy with him before so it was a bit scary (?)
We got right down to business as we sat across from each other with my evaluation sheet on the table. He started out with saying that in order to pass, the top two categories needed perfect scores regardless of how perfect the other categories were...
=________= Fck
I immediately knew I was not going to pass, but we ended up going through each category and talking about them. But the thought of not passing already sorta made everything else he said afterwards go in one ear and then out the other..it just didn't matter anymore. So I just nodded and tried my best to smile to look like I was taking in everything he was saying to me. He was also trying to speak as gently as possible cuz like he said already "I know it's disappointing...blah-blah".
To make it more optimistic, he then went on to say that I would be better prepared for the next evaluation happening in August. He also knew about me moving to Georgia Tech, so he asked me when I was leaving, so he asked when I was leaving, so I replied "no later than August." dead awkwardness follows....~.~
the more he talked, the angrier i became inside. i just wanted to storm out of that room and never see him again. and then i remembered that I had liked this guy alot before, and more disappointment followed. So I just sat there and listened to more of what he had to say.
Then he asked how long I was gonna be in Georgia and I said ~4 yrs. He said that there will be a store opening at Atlanta in a few yrs so i could be supervisor there then....>.> omg when he said this, my eyes narrowed, and i really thought to myself.."is this guy kidding me?" smh..why am i still sitting here? ..sigh
I think he sensed that his apologetic conversation wasn't exactly working for me cuz it just got more awkward. So he ended it by saying that he would be my future reference if I needed him. I don't remember next if he offered his number or if I asked for it to seize the opportunity, but the next thing I remembered is him writing down his cell number on my notepad. I had dreamed of different scenarios of getting his number or me giving my number to him, but not like this. It was just so sad. I glanced at the number, but I was more interested in his full name cuz i never knew his last name.
John Dwyer.
Another piece of info that I had gathered about him..from Connecticut, went to Syracuse University for business major, trained at Japan, and somehow used his cute charming skills to move up the ranks.
So the meeting ended, thank god! All the feelings I had felt for him were dumped in that room too. Time to move on and get out!
We got right down to business as we sat across from each other with my evaluation sheet on the table. He started out with saying that in order to pass, the top two categories needed perfect scores regardless of how perfect the other categories were...
=________= Fck
I immediately knew I was not going to pass, but we ended up going through each category and talking about them. But the thought of not passing already sorta made everything else he said afterwards go in one ear and then out the other..it just didn't matter anymore. So I just nodded and tried my best to smile to look like I was taking in everything he was saying to me. He was also trying to speak as gently as possible cuz like he said already "I know it's disappointing...blah-blah".
To make it more optimistic, he then went on to say that I would be better prepared for the next evaluation happening in August. He also knew about me moving to Georgia Tech, so he asked me when I was leaving, so he asked when I was leaving, so I replied "no later than August." dead awkwardness follows....~.~
the more he talked, the angrier i became inside. i just wanted to storm out of that room and never see him again. and then i remembered that I had liked this guy alot before, and more disappointment followed. So I just sat there and listened to more of what he had to say.
Then he asked how long I was gonna be in Georgia and I said ~4 yrs. He said that there will be a store opening at Atlanta in a few yrs so i could be supervisor there then....>.> omg when he said this, my eyes narrowed, and i really thought to myself.."is this guy kidding me?" smh..why am i still sitting here? ..sigh
I think he sensed that his apologetic conversation wasn't exactly working for me cuz it just got more awkward. So he ended it by saying that he would be my future reference if I needed him. I don't remember next if he offered his number or if I asked for it to seize the opportunity, but the next thing I remembered is him writing down his cell number on my notepad. I had dreamed of different scenarios of getting his number or me giving my number to him, but not like this. It was just so sad. I glanced at the number, but I was more interested in his full name cuz i never knew his last name.
John Dwyer.
Another piece of info that I had gathered about him..from Connecticut, went to Syracuse University for business major, trained at Japan, and somehow used his cute charming skills to move up the ranks.
So the meeting ended, thank god! All the feelings I had felt for him were dumped in that room too. Time to move on and get out!
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
oh boy here i go again
ahh jeez,
..why does he have to be so sweet?
and with those cute puppy eyes and smile too!
he knows he's cute even though he's balding,
and his vicinity can easily throw me into utter confusion!
i can't help but wonder if he knows how much influence he has over me,
cuz i can say yes to just about anything he asks,
his gentleness makes me weak inside,
but i can only return a cold, stone facial expression...
--the dreamy soul w/ the aching heart
..why does he have to be so sweet?
and with those cute puppy eyes and smile too!
he knows he's cute even though he's balding,
and his vicinity can easily throw me into utter confusion!
i can't help but wonder if he knows how much influence he has over me,
cuz i can say yes to just about anything he asks,
his gentleness makes me weak inside,
but i can only return a cold, stone facial expression...
--the dreamy soul w/ the aching heart
Thursday, February 9, 2012
freakish dream
I just woke up from a freakish nightmare that felt more like it came out from one of those korean scary movies...and i felt like i needed to log this down before i forget it...I also added some pics that i drew from paint so i tried my best.
I can't really remember how the dream started off, but what I remember was that I was in a large room with grey walls and so the environment looked very grey and dark. I was sliding down a zip line in chase of a friend, who was also on the zip line chasing another person in front. So there were 3 ppl on this zip line right now. The person my friend was chasing after was dressed all in white and had a pony tail with dirty blonde hair. From the angry expressions on my friend, it looked like the person in white was a traitor of some sort. I can't remember if my friend was a male or female nor any other description, except that i remember caring about that person, and that's why I was chasing after my friend in case s/he needed help.
Near the end of the zip line, my friend reached to the person in white first, obviously. And they are in a fight and my friend is losing. When I reach there, I don't remember what happened next but I was already laying on the ground only slightly conscious.
In the next scene, when my eyes open up, I saw two IV needles on my right arm, one on the inside of my arm where my elbow bends and the other one near my wrist on the left side. Someone appeared to detach both IV needles off of me, but she left one of those plastic plugs that you would find on a balloon that keeps the air in, and there was a band-aid around it. I felt like I was under a lot of heavy drugs, but when I noticed the plugs, I made an effort to call out to the "nurse" to tell her that she forgot the plugs and that I didn't want them there. But no one listened and I was wheeled into another room.
In the next room, there was only light coming from the projector that was in front of me and a computer screen on a table to the far right. My head kept bobbing from side to side, prolly from the drugs. I hear a "cinch" sound and I think it was someone attaching something to the back of my lower neck. After making that connection, I tried to look over to the computer and I saw someone in front of the computer screen. On the screen, I could only make out "1 of 32 concepts". That person on the computer clicked on it and images started flashing by on the projector. When I see them, I remember telling myself that they looked like events from my childhood memories, except that I couldn't remember them when I was fully conscious. The next thing that popped up on the computer screen read: "Saving 1 of 32 concepts". It made me wonder if these ppl were trying to tap into my unconscious memories??? Then I started panicking in my mind and looked for a way to get out. Then another msg popped up on the computer screen that said "? of 32 concepts". I can't remember the exact number and that's why it's a question mark now. I do remember the person on the computer looking surprised and responded with "Well that's something new." When he clicked on the msg, another set of images flashed by on the projection screen and that's when I passed out.
When I regained consciousness, I was still in the same room. But the computer screen and projector had been turned off. I still felt very weak in energy level. The person that had attached the thing to my neck was in the process of removing it. After that was detached, she proceeded to remove the tubes that I just noticed that had been attached my IV spots. When the tube was removed from the one on my left wrist, I saw blood coming out of it and I motioned to her about it.
She understood what I was trying to do and she wiped the blood around the plastic plug, but didn't do anything further. I must have given her a look of utter horror cuz she then bent down near to my right ear and said: "Next time, cut it in the middle" as she touched the insertion site of my insulin pump. I think I responded with "What do you mean cut there?" Then something dawned on me and I just remembered that I had been having dreams of someone visiting me to do something at those insertion sites, and this made me realize that those weren't dreams, but that they actually happened.
Then I woke up from my nap. This was so freakishly weird and one of the more vivid dreams that I recalled with this much detail.
I can't really remember how the dream started off, but what I remember was that I was in a large room with grey walls and so the environment looked very grey and dark. I was sliding down a zip line in chase of a friend, who was also on the zip line chasing another person in front. So there were 3 ppl on this zip line right now. The person my friend was chasing after was dressed all in white and had a pony tail with dirty blonde hair. From the angry expressions on my friend, it looked like the person in white was a traitor of some sort. I can't remember if my friend was a male or female nor any other description, except that i remember caring about that person, and that's why I was chasing after my friend in case s/he needed help.
Near the end of the zip line, my friend reached to the person in white first, obviously. And they are in a fight and my friend is losing. When I reach there, I don't remember what happened next but I was already laying on the ground only slightly conscious.
In the next scene, when my eyes open up, I saw two IV needles on my right arm, one on the inside of my arm where my elbow bends and the other one near my wrist on the left side. Someone appeared to detach both IV needles off of me, but she left one of those plastic plugs that you would find on a balloon that keeps the air in, and there was a band-aid around it. I felt like I was under a lot of heavy drugs, but when I noticed the plugs, I made an effort to call out to the "nurse" to tell her that she forgot the plugs and that I didn't want them there. But no one listened and I was wheeled into another room.
In the next room, there was only light coming from the projector that was in front of me and a computer screen on a table to the far right. My head kept bobbing from side to side, prolly from the drugs. I hear a "cinch" sound and I think it was someone attaching something to the back of my lower neck. After making that connection, I tried to look over to the computer and I saw someone in front of the computer screen. On the screen, I could only make out "1 of 32 concepts". That person on the computer clicked on it and images started flashing by on the projector. When I see them, I remember telling myself that they looked like events from my childhood memories, except that I couldn't remember them when I was fully conscious. The next thing that popped up on the computer screen read: "Saving 1 of 32 concepts". It made me wonder if these ppl were trying to tap into my unconscious memories??? Then I started panicking in my mind and looked for a way to get out. Then another msg popped up on the computer screen that said "? of 32 concepts". I can't remember the exact number and that's why it's a question mark now. I do remember the person on the computer looking surprised and responded with "Well that's something new." When he clicked on the msg, another set of images flashed by on the projection screen and that's when I passed out.
When I regained consciousness, I was still in the same room. But the computer screen and projector had been turned off. I still felt very weak in energy level. The person that had attached the thing to my neck was in the process of removing it. After that was detached, she proceeded to remove the tubes that I just noticed that had been attached my IV spots. When the tube was removed from the one on my left wrist, I saw blood coming out of it and I motioned to her about it.
She understood what I was trying to do and she wiped the blood around the plastic plug, but didn't do anything further. I must have given her a look of utter horror cuz she then bent down near to my right ear and said: "Next time, cut it in the middle" as she touched the insertion site of my insulin pump. I think I responded with "What do you mean cut there?" Then something dawned on me and I just remembered that I had been having dreams of someone visiting me to do something at those insertion sites, and this made me realize that those weren't dreams, but that they actually happened.
 |
| a sample image of an insertion site for the insulin pump |
Then I woke up from my nap. This was so freakishly weird and one of the more vivid dreams that I recalled with this much detail.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
grad school ..gahh
Filling out MIT's grad school app right now as I await my account confirmation e-mail is just filling me w/ self-doubt. Their essay has a 500 word limit too! I HATE word LIMITS >.< gosh, i don't like chopping my essay down =(
I've already admitted defeat so why am I still going through this self-humiliating process??
I just hope ...reallly really REALLY hope that my chances of getting in is exactly 1 in 10.
=/
I've already admitted defeat so why am I still going through this self-humiliating process??
I just hope ...reallly really REALLY hope that my chances of getting in is exactly 1 in 10.
=/
Monday, September 19, 2011
Week 9/11-17
Last week really got my emotions going all over the place.
First it was 9/11 and its anniversary has always got me watching the tv news again and seeing the event episodes play over and over again. And I don't get tired of it either. I nvr realized it but one of my friend's fb status post went:
My memory isn't the best but that day when I stepped out of the doors of my JHS 56 and saw that smoke cloud around the Twin Towers, that image has forever made a lasting imprint in my memories.
The next morning, my former boss from my summer job at Cold Spring Harbor Lab emailed me to tell me that my former co-worker, Kenny Polk, had died in a car accident in Oyster Bay, Long Island. I was so shocked that I was hoping that she was just kidding, but after reading it 3 times, I didn't see that anywhere. I've never experienced a loss until and it's really benumbing. All my memories of my co-worker just started flooding through my mind and it made his death feel even more unreal. I had only been talking to him just a month ago and now he's just..gone? I was not very close with him, but he wasn't a bad person and he had dreams and goals and earned lots of appreciation of him. It made me realize how fragile and vulnerable this gift of life can be...sigh.. May he rest in peace...
My brother had bought a seasonal membership with Gold's Gym and it came with a 1-week free trial for a friend/family member, so of course I went to put it to good use. The workout I get there has been the most I've ever done in the past year. I forgot how good it is to do a cardio workout. The environment is pretty good and it only gets crowded after work hours since it's in mid-manhattan. They have classes too in various fields and so I took ballet and street jazz. I really like doing ballet and the instructor is great too. When I went into street jazz, the music is very poppy like Beyonce's recent song "Girls's who run the World." Ballet is more stiff while street jazz is more fluid. I found out that my body was better suited to ballet. I think I can do the street jazz moves if I can add a sexy attitude to it hahas like that's gonna ever happen..
I went back to yoga after having not done it in a month lols so bad of me and it was only b/c one of my friends, Jenny, wanted to try out Yoga to the People and needed someone to accompany her. Man, I sweat so much but it felt SOOO GOOOD! And then we ate at Dallas BBQ, which I never knew existed in St. Mark's lols I've been to that hood so many times and I'm still wondering how I nvr noticed it. And we shared a dinner meal (chicken, potatoes, rice, corn bread, soup) for $10 (not including tax/tips)! Can't believe how cheap it was, but it was an early bird special.
In the amNY newspaper that day, I read my horoscope like I always do for curiosity reasons and for the first time, it wrote something that did come true.."Share a meal with someone interesting.." and I sure did. We were able to devour our fatty meal and still talk about life in ~30 mins.
Since my last post, I've become a fan of Ann Taylor Loft and I couldn't stop thinking of that white shirt that I tried on. I had gone to another Ann Taylor store on Madison Ave and when I tried on the shirt, it didn't feel the same and was quite sheer. I became disappointed, but then I went back to the original store in Rockefeller Center (i know, i get episodes of OCD) and the one I had tried on before was STILL there and it felt PERFECT again -crispy cotton white, sheer only on the back side and not the front, covered buttons, modest v-neck cut line, not itchy, etc. I could only wish it wouldn't get wrinkled. Okay, I thought to myself, this shirt is def meant to be for me LOLS! I was willing to pay for its retail price cuz good things don't stay around for it to go on sale but this one did. When I was checking out, I didn't know there was a 40% off sale going on and I got it for ~$34 instead of $58 and i was like..0_0 hell yea! SCOOOOORE!!!!
I had my UNIQLO orientation on Saturday and I had left early cuz there was no F train running on my stop so I had to take a shuttle bus. o-m-gawd it was so horrible. Everybody wants to get in cuz one bus can't fill a train full of weekend commuters. Ppl were shouting, cursing, pushing, stepping on toes, etc. and then there was traffic on the expressway??!! Of course I got there late..by 20 mins. But thankfully, b/c there were so many new hirees, the front panel was still registering ppl. The orientation ended at 1pm and Harumi's bday dinner wasn't happening till 6:30 pm so I had to go home. But for some bizarre reason, the bus lady went on the regular roads instead of the expressway and so every other minute it was stopping. I get home and I find the oh-so-familiar FedEx tag on the door that I was missed grrrr. I got on the same commute when I went out to Harumi's dinner and this was really putting me in a grumpy mood and I just couldn't wait to meet my friends again so that I could forget it. And I had such a blast during Harumi's bday and I think I enjoyed myself the most after dinner when we were just chatting outside the resto hahas A random stranger even used his nifty white polaroid camera to take a pic of us, but since it was so random and sudden, we were all scattered in the pic lols But I will nvr forget that super loud and judgement-passing waiter at Laut who kept popping out of nowhere from behind me. I think he made me jump twice that night lols
When that gay bitch heard that she came from Japan, he started making conversations with her. He even told her that he had worked in Uniqlo before and I was like "Did he just say that?" I guess he was hoping that that would open to more conversations, but she was busy writing things down and walked 2 steps away from him before turning back to respond "Oh really? That's cool." and then continued to walk away. I was laughing in my mind so hard. Girl, you just became my best-friend. I felt like I got my revenge, this evil side of me hahahas..but i'm not really liking my schedule for this week tho..sigh
Hmm..now I'm on the hunt for a long white tunic/dress that looks like this but with the black/blue stripes only on the upper quarter part of it. I saw it on one of the new Uniqlo hirees, but she was in another training group otherwise I would have asked her =\
Tunic (see more stripe tunics)
First it was 9/11 and its anniversary has always got me watching the tv news again and seeing the event episodes play over and over again. And I don't get tired of it either. I nvr realized it but one of my friend's fb status post went:
My memory isn't the best but that day when I stepped out of the doors of my JHS 56 and saw that smoke cloud around the Twin Towers, that image has forever made a lasting imprint in my memories.
The next morning, my former boss from my summer job at Cold Spring Harbor Lab emailed me to tell me that my former co-worker, Kenny Polk, had died in a car accident in Oyster Bay, Long Island. I was so shocked that I was hoping that she was just kidding, but after reading it 3 times, I didn't see that anywhere. I've never experienced a loss until and it's really benumbing. All my memories of my co-worker just started flooding through my mind and it made his death feel even more unreal. I had only been talking to him just a month ago and now he's just..gone? I was not very close with him, but he wasn't a bad person and he had dreams and goals and earned lots of appreciation of him. It made me realize how fragile and vulnerable this gift of life can be...sigh.. May he rest in peace...
My brother had bought a seasonal membership with Gold's Gym and it came with a 1-week free trial for a friend/family member, so of course I went to put it to good use. The workout I get there has been the most I've ever done in the past year. I forgot how good it is to do a cardio workout. The environment is pretty good and it only gets crowded after work hours since it's in mid-manhattan. They have classes too in various fields and so I took ballet and street jazz. I really like doing ballet and the instructor is great too. When I went into street jazz, the music is very poppy like Beyonce's recent song "Girls's who run the World." Ballet is more stiff while street jazz is more fluid. I found out that my body was better suited to ballet. I think I can do the street jazz moves if I can add a sexy attitude to it hahas like that's gonna ever happen..
I went back to yoga after having not done it in a month lols so bad of me and it was only b/c one of my friends, Jenny, wanted to try out Yoga to the People and needed someone to accompany her. Man, I sweat so much but it felt SOOO GOOOD! And then we ate at Dallas BBQ, which I never knew existed in St. Mark's lols I've been to that hood so many times and I'm still wondering how I nvr noticed it. And we shared a dinner meal (chicken, potatoes, rice, corn bread, soup) for $10 (not including tax/tips)! Can't believe how cheap it was, but it was an early bird special.
In the amNY newspaper that day, I read my horoscope like I always do for curiosity reasons and for the first time, it wrote something that did come true.."Share a meal with someone interesting.." and I sure did. We were able to devour our fatty meal and still talk about life in ~30 mins.
Since my last post, I've become a fan of Ann Taylor Loft and I couldn't stop thinking of that white shirt that I tried on. I had gone to another Ann Taylor store on Madison Ave and when I tried on the shirt, it didn't feel the same and was quite sheer. I became disappointed, but then I went back to the original store in Rockefeller Center (i know, i get episodes of OCD) and the one I had tried on before was STILL there and it felt PERFECT again -crispy cotton white, sheer only on the back side and not the front, covered buttons, modest v-neck cut line, not itchy, etc. I could only wish it wouldn't get wrinkled. Okay, I thought to myself, this shirt is def meant to be for me LOLS! I was willing to pay for its retail price cuz good things don't stay around for it to go on sale but this one did. When I was checking out, I didn't know there was a 40% off sale going on and I got it for ~$34 instead of $58 and i was like..0_0 hell yea! SCOOOOORE!!!!
I had my UNIQLO orientation on Saturday and I had left early cuz there was no F train running on my stop so I had to take a shuttle bus. o-m-gawd it was so horrible. Everybody wants to get in cuz one bus can't fill a train full of weekend commuters. Ppl were shouting, cursing, pushing, stepping on toes, etc. and then there was traffic on the expressway??!! Of course I got there late..by 20 mins. But thankfully, b/c there were so many new hirees, the front panel was still registering ppl. The orientation ended at 1pm and Harumi's bday dinner wasn't happening till 6:30 pm so I had to go home. But for some bizarre reason, the bus lady went on the regular roads instead of the expressway and so every other minute it was stopping. I get home and I find the oh-so-familiar FedEx tag on the door that I was missed grrrr. I got on the same commute when I went out to Harumi's dinner and this was really putting me in a grumpy mood and I just couldn't wait to meet my friends again so that I could forget it. And I had such a blast during Harumi's bday and I think I enjoyed myself the most after dinner when we were just chatting outside the resto hahas A random stranger even used his nifty white polaroid camera to take a pic of us, but since it was so random and sudden, we were all scattered in the pic lols But I will nvr forget that super loud and judgement-passing waiter at Laut who kept popping out of nowhere from behind me. I think he made me jump twice that night lols
 |
| love love love her gaping wide mouth lols |
On the way home, I had to get on the bus again that went on the local route and the driver was even dropping ppl off at request when it wasn't allowed on an express one. That got a lot of ppl riled up. I was able to get a single seat and there was this azn man standing by me and he kept moving his phone near my face. I kept giving him nasty looks to signal my annoyance but it got so close that I had to physically move his arm away and tell him loudly, yo, keep that away from me!
I also got my period that night so maybe that was why my entire week has got my emotions fluctuating all over the place.
Sunday was the first day of training at UNIQLO's soho store and it was exciting, but tiring. I was on my feet the entire day except for the hour lunch I had and of which I had spent a good 15 mins on the women's bathroom line. So I was basically on my feet for 7 and half hrs that day. I need to find a comfy and stylish shoe now....>.< During the morning meeting, there were probably ~60 ppl on the ground floor that day. I was thinking to myself, how were all these 40+ new hirees gonna have space to get training with customers coming in on a Sunday?? During the meeting, I also noticed a lot of passerbys peering thru the glass window and they were probably wondering whether the store was open or not with that many ppl inside lols If anyone's been to UNIQLO, they will notice the employees there wear a red name tag and a black cross-body bag. I've been wanting that black bag since I saw it and I got my hands on one that day, but not my name tag cuz it wasn't ready. Since Uniqlo originated from Japan, I learned some of the cultural reasons behind some of their rules. I also need to take a paper test within 2 weeks or so after my training and periodic evaluations on my task speed. I don't know if other retailers do this but it felt soo ..Asian? lols Another interesting fact I didn't know was that the SoHo store makes more than ANY of its stores worldwide, that means even more than the ones in Japan. Uniqlo is also one of the top 5 highest grossing garment retail stores while Zara sits on the #1 spot.
I didn't make any friends yet but there are some that I see myself getting along with very well. And then there are these "gay bitches." It's this recognizable high-pitch annoyed male voice that they have and every other sentence ends in a big disgusted sigh. So there was this one guy who was re-hired and when we were at the folding training, we were in the same group and I asked him for help cuz I heard he worked there before (but that was in 2007 but i didn't know that yet). He just looks to the side and tells to the person next to me: "This is why I didn't like the manager telling ppl I worked here before cuz then all these ppl start asking me this and that." I was like in my head, "Okay, fair enough, keep cool" and I folded the damn shirt better than he did HA! and it gets better...we had to give in our phone numbers to the trainer before we were dismissed at 5pm. So while we were waiting on a line, another manager (forgot her name but will remember next time cuz she will be managing the 34th st store) stopped by to see how things were going. This manager had interviewed me and she remembered my face. She's also very very pretty and I think she's mixed. Her face kinda reminds me of Kristin Kreuk (she played Lana in Smallville).
 |
| Kristin Kreuk |
Hmm..now I'm on the hunt for a long white tunic/dress that looks like this but with the black/blue stripes only on the upper quarter part of it. I saw it on one of the new Uniqlo hirees, but she was in another training group otherwise I would have asked her =\
Tunic (see more stripe tunics)
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Summer 2011
whooaaa I haven't updated this blog since JUNE! but i've been having so much fun this summer that i didn't miss blogging until now lols and cuz i'm jobless again, feels like a recurring cycle =(
let's see, this summer i did alot of eating out (mostly celebrating a lot of summer bdays of friends & family) and shopping!
Let me do experiences first....
My Techie friends surprised me on a trip to BROOKLYN BOULDERS! I finally got to go rock climbing! yippeee!!!
The second great experience I had was WHITEWATER RAFTING!!!! I learned from experience from snowboarding and paintballing that these physical activities requires some prep work and I actually did some weight training on my arms so that I won't slow down my raft groupie. I think the training really helped me a lot in terms of endurance, but not so much strength-wise. This was the only pic available since I was too chicken to bring my cam on the raft, but I WILL next time! and be looking at the camera too!
The 3rd great experience was walking THE HIGHLINE PARK! damn, i've been wanting to go here for 2 years but didn't know who to go with so when my hs friends wanted me to plan a reunion, I made sure we went there =D Such a nice place to take photos too during sunset
The 4th great experience was watching a movie ON THE BEACH at coney island. I liked the open air environment, but only if there was no rain or mosquitoes otherwise I would prefer the indoor one
The 5th great adventure was at THE HARRY POTTER EXHIBITION!!!!!! I was hyperventilating the entire start of the exhibit. I was so sad when the books finished, but I had the movies to look forward to. But now the movie series has ended, and that made me even more depressed. When I heard about this exhibit, it awakened this crazy fandom excitement in me. Going to this exhibit was a great way to close this harry potter chapter of my life that's been going on since elementary school when I first saw my friend lend it to me after she gave up reading it (ironic lols) The only downer was that I couldn't take pics so I posed w/ everything in the lobby and read every caption in the exhibit to absorb everything just to calm my skyrocketing level of happinessssss
Okay, now time to talk about the fashiony stuff that i got or wanted to get this summer xP
This wasn't something I bought, but i was gonna buy it anyways if it wasn't for Regina who bought it as my bday gift and i absolutely LOVE it, it was THE SUMMER BAG of my bags <3
But now it's getting dirty and I'm wondering if there is a product out there that can protect my tote bag from getting dirtier =\
I joined GroupOn this summer and they gave me $10 for my first purchase and after some searching, I only found the deal for a cosmetic bag w/ a pic from Bagettes to be worthy enough. The quality of the pic didn't come out as nice that I hoped it would, but the bag quality is not bad and it really helps me in keeping all the small stuff together now that I'm using a tote bag. I want to get more when another deal comes around.
Thick black rim glasses have been all the rage among hipsters and I have to admit they look cute in them. They're almost everywhere now everytime I step out the door so I thought I try them out when I saw a pair in forever21. I am seriously considering one in red/green/maybe even clear hmmm..
I also finally got a pair of RED SHOOOEEES!!! I've been wanting one to include in my "wardrobe" since I saw them on Dorothy from "The Wizard of OZ". I saw them online in DSW, but there weren't any in my size and I kept checking back online for a span of maybe 3 weeks reading other ppl's reviews of the red shoe and waiting until the right size became available. One review said it was too matronly for her and returned it, and that made me worry a bit, but when I finally got them, I did notice the fiery power that this would add to my appearance, but they were too comfy to be returned =)
Many of my girl friends liked Ann Taylor and I never understood why until today when I walked down 6th Ave with my lil sis after our workout and high caloried lunch. My lil sis was one of their fans, and now I've become one after I saw this nice cotton short sleeve cuffed shirt just b/c..well just b/c I want to own a nice white cotton shirt for business casual wear. There was a 50% off Labor day sale on the sales rack and I found this nice one. I didn't take a pic of me in it cuz I was planning to get it anyways. But when I came to check out, the cashier lady said wasn't on sale, and it would have cost me $68 >.< awws too bad, and it's sold out online too
After I saw how great Jasmine's curls came out during Lily's sunday brunch, I decided to do it the same way she did it, which was basically make a bun from already-damped hair and leave it like that over-night. So I tried that and I left the bun on for 24+hrs and it did not come out as nicely as Jas's lols
okay, time for the biggest part...FOOOOODD
This was the best spent Labor day holiday. I started out the day working out w/ my lil sis at Gold's Gym cuz I have a one week free membership there. Then used these Burger King coupons we found to get free chicken nuggets and one free whopper w/ the purchase of a whopper. Then went to McDonald's to get a mango pineapple smoothie using a $1 off coupon. Then walked down 6th ave while window shopping (there were so many 50% off sales!!). That's how I came across Ann Taylor hahas. Then we went karaoking at Duet and it was AWESOME! I've been wanting to belt out tunes from all this past year's song releases..=D
let's see, this summer i did alot of eating out (mostly celebrating a lot of summer bdays of friends & family) and shopping!
Let me do experiences first....
My Techie friends surprised me on a trip to BROOKLYN BOULDERS! I finally got to go rock climbing! yippeee!!!
 |
| yay i'm climbing! |
 |
| there was tight rope too |
 |
| awesome rock climbing friends! |
 |
| they also bought me my first lottery tkts, but i didn't win anything ;x |
The second great experience I had was WHITEWATER RAFTING!!!! I learned from experience from snowboarding and paintballing that these physical activities requires some prep work and I actually did some weight training on my arms so that I won't slow down my raft groupie. I think the training really helped me a lot in terms of endurance, but not so much strength-wise. This was the only pic available since I was too chicken to bring my cam on the raft, but I WILL next time! and be looking at the camera too!
The 3rd great experience was walking THE HIGHLINE PARK! damn, i've been wanting to go here for 2 years but didn't know who to go with so when my hs friends wanted me to plan a reunion, I made sure we went there =D Such a nice place to take photos too during sunset
 |
| i spotted a cutie pie at The Park restaurant. i think these are my type hahas |
 |
| i love this pic so much it's on my cosmetic bag now =D |
 |
| @Rainbow City fair on the Highline |
The 5th great adventure was at THE HARRY POTTER EXHIBITION!!!!!! I was hyperventilating the entire start of the exhibit. I was so sad when the books finished, but I had the movies to look forward to. But now the movie series has ended, and that made me even more depressed. When I heard about this exhibit, it awakened this crazy fandom excitement in me. Going to this exhibit was a great way to close this harry potter chapter of my life that's been going on since elementary school when I first saw my friend lend it to me after she gave up reading it (ironic lols) The only downer was that I couldn't take pics so I posed w/ everything in the lobby and read every caption in the exhibit to absorb everything just to calm my skyrocketing level of happinessssss
Okay, now time to talk about the fashiony stuff that i got or wanted to get this summer xP
This wasn't something I bought, but i was gonna buy it anyways if it wasn't for Regina who bought it as my bday gift and i absolutely LOVE it, it was THE SUMMER BAG of my bags <3
I joined GroupOn this summer and they gave me $10 for my first purchase and after some searching, I only found the deal for a cosmetic bag w/ a pic from Bagettes to be worthy enough. The quality of the pic didn't come out as nice that I hoped it would, but the bag quality is not bad and it really helps me in keeping all the small stuff together now that I'm using a tote bag. I want to get more when another deal comes around.
 |
| front view |
 |
| back view (taken from online cuz i forgot to take an actual pic of the back) |
Thick black rim glasses have been all the rage among hipsters and I have to admit they look cute in them. They're almost everywhere now everytime I step out the door so I thought I try them out when I saw a pair in forever21. I am seriously considering one in red/green/maybe even clear hmmm..
I also finally got a pair of RED SHOOOEEES!!! I've been wanting one to include in my "wardrobe" since I saw them on Dorothy from "The Wizard of OZ". I saw them online in DSW, but there weren't any in my size and I kept checking back online for a span of maybe 3 weeks reading other ppl's reviews of the red shoe and waiting until the right size became available. One review said it was too matronly for her and returned it, and that made me worry a bit, but when I finally got them, I did notice the fiery power that this would add to my appearance, but they were too comfy to be returned =)
 |
| haha shoes on table, that's like breaking so many rules |
 |
| when/where can i wear this shoe, i've nvr gotten a shoe w/ a heel this high Dx |
Many of my girl friends liked Ann Taylor and I never understood why until today when I walked down 6th Ave with my lil sis after our workout and high caloried lunch. My lil sis was one of their fans, and now I've become one after I saw this nice cotton short sleeve cuffed shirt just b/c..well just b/c I want to own a nice white cotton shirt for business casual wear. There was a 50% off Labor day sale on the sales rack and I found this nice one. I didn't take a pic of me in it cuz I was planning to get it anyways. But when I came to check out, the cashier lady said wasn't on sale, and it would have cost me $68 >.< awws too bad, and it's sold out online too
 |
| http://www.anntaylor.com/p/cotton-short-sleeve-cuffed-shirt.shtml |
 |
| it's MEDUSA staring right back at me @_@ |
okay, time for the biggest part...FOOOOODD
 |
| Kelvin truck's tea base slushie w/ pink guava |
 |
| Coolhaus truck's one story lychee martini sorbet in a chocolate chip cookie sandwich + EDIBLE wrapper |
 |
| FRIED OREOs from Coney Island..this devil's food was sooo good |
 |
| my 1st banana split from BROOKLYN ICE CREAM FACTORY |
 |
| GRIMALDI'S PIZZA: with pepperonI and sweet red peppers. this was soooo good but this needed more tomato sauce |
 |
| YUMMY |
 |
| Calamari Salad from Asia de Cube during RESTAURANT WEEK |
 |
| beef dumplings from Asia de Cuba |
 |
| this is a mix of Cuban BBQ chicken, plantain fried rice & honey glazed pot roast of pork from Asia de Cuba |
 |
| DESSERTS! i can still taste the coconut cake xP |
 |
| posing w/ our desserts and looking all very pretty for fine dining style ;) |
 |
| I always see eggs benedict listed on the brunch menu and now i finally know how it tastes like and it is gooood. From the University Cafe restaurant |
 |
| A friend i met at my summer job in Cold Spring Harbor Lab gave me this pizza w/ Chicken & Broccoli topping, and it made me realize that chicken tastes soo much better on pizzas!!! |
 |
| my 1st red velvet cupcake made from a co-worker and it is DIVINE |
 |
| I'm not really a fan of TenRen's cold drinks, but when I ordered a hot milk tea bev from them, it changed my opinion. I think i'll only make this order at the store now. |
 |
| i'm also not a big fan of anything that comes out from a blender, but this Fuzzy Monkey (peach -banana) smoothie from CAFE METRO really blew me away. It tasted even better after my workout =P |
 |
| my 1st experience eating Chicken & Rice from the Halal Guys! satisfying indeed! |
This was the best spent Labor day holiday. I started out the day working out w/ my lil sis at Gold's Gym cuz I have a one week free membership there. Then used these Burger King coupons we found to get free chicken nuggets and one free whopper w/ the purchase of a whopper. Then went to McDonald's to get a mango pineapple smoothie using a $1 off coupon. Then walked down 6th ave while window shopping (there were so many 50% off sales!!). That's how I came across Ann Taylor hahas. Then we went karaoking at Duet and it was AWESOME! I've been wanting to belt out tunes from all this past year's song releases..=D
 |
| i feel like such a loser sometimes but when i saw this GREEN sign next to the gym, i immediately felt it was worth embarrassing myself to express my green love lols |
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)